The reader will find a woman who lost her way as she abandoned nightly prayer alongside her first husband once many blessings came. There was little thought of prayer once the comfort of good paying positions and many new friends showed up. Her walk becomes rocky way before this because of her lack of spiritual commitment. She teeter-totters forty-plus years, picking and choosing what biblical words of wisdom she would use to guide her life by. Thus, her disobedient walk allowed many shocking situations to come into her life, not because of her first husband was diagnosed as manic-depressive, neither was it because her second husband undiagnosed, showing symptoms of chronic traumatic encephalopathy described by Dr. Bennet Omalu, a noted neurosurgeon. The reader will find outrageous events revisited in her memoir and poems, as this woman walked under her own perception of right and wrong. Each chapter is a complete and true story with names changed to protect the innocent, revealing the part she played to help intensify or create dysfunctional relationships due to her lack of wisdom. As time moved forth, she was forced to face facts that her disobedient walk did not solely hurt herself but affected those closest to her heart as well. Finally understanding that we are never smarter than our creator, she started to hope maybe sharing these transparent tales will help someone see the folly of forging ahead under our own strength and understanding.