BJ is a young woman trying to heal from the death of her beloved husband killed in the Vietnam War. Her journey to healing takes her through suicide attempts, a second marriage, motherhood, a cult investigation, a second widowhood, and depression. She confronts these without the life skills needed, which leads to much fear and anger, feelings she stores inside her heart. Eventually, she finds the peace she has searched for in God. But just when she feels her heart beginning to heal, she must face more challenges in her life that send her spiraling back into the depths of depression and anger. How can she survive this again? Where was God when she needed Him? She learns her healing has just begun and how God will use her to heal many others.